Issue 6 Page 4

Everyone talks about how exciting it is to be a senior, get into college and graduation. 

But no one ever talks about the fear aspect within doing all of that.

At the beginning of this year, I was ecstatic to be a senior and graduate. But now I am absolutely terrified to leave. 

In four months I’ll be moving into college and depending on myself for all my finances, including paying for college. It is insanely stressful to think about. All my food, new clothes, books, housing, tuition – all on me. 

My niece is a kindergartener and I won’t be able to see her grow up or pick her up from school anymore. Pretty much every interaction with them starting in August is going to be electronic, which is a hard thing to wrap your head around. 

Me and my family, especially me and my sisters, are very close-knit. We go two weeks without seeing each other and we think we’re going to die. I don’t know how I’m going to handle not seeing them for a month or two at a time. We are each other’s glue, we keep each other level-headed.

I’m also the youngest, so that is tied into all of this. Me graduating and going to college is the final curtain call on my childhood. Everyone has grown up and has careers and kids, and that’s it.

I’m trying to cling onto the little bit of moments I have left. Watching movies with my parents, inviting my sisters to go hang out, picking up my niece from school and taking her to get ice cream. Every chance I get to spend time with my family I’m taking and preserving those memories.